So, we’re 43 days away from the BIG day! J

It’s an exciting time in my life right now and at the same time it’s a little bit scary too. It’s not a bad kind of scared. It’s more like a nervousness/worry for me. I’ve talked to Aaron about it. I’m not afraid to get married or be married to him, I’m just nervous about what comes after marriage…the rest of our lives.

•     I worry that I won’t be a good wife because I didn’t exactly have the best example.
•   I worry that we’ll fight all the time because I’m not the greatest communicator. (although,  I have come a very long way in the past year)
•   I worry that I’ll fail and let God, my soon-to-be husband and everyone I love down.
•   I just worry sooo much and I know that I shouldn’t.

I’ve ALWAYS been a worry-wart. I grew up worrying about EVERYTHING. I really dislike that that’s the truth. It’s true that most of the things I worry about don’t ever come about but for some reason that worry continues.

I keep praying that these worries will disappear but you know how it is. You pray and pray but until you’re ready to let it go and BELIEVE that God is in control, those worries don’t go away. I struggle with this sometimes. SO, pray that I can REALLY hand this all over to God.  I know He’s really trying to teach me something right now.  

Last night at our Celebrate Recovery leadership meeting we went through a “Recovery Check-up” training. It as really awesome. We talked about the Big 3 areas in our lives that are roadblocks in our recovery.

Ø  Failures of the past,

Ø  Denial of the present

Ø  Fear of the future.

As we went through the questions that went with each roadblock I was smacked up against the head with things I hadn’t realized have been tearing at me lately. As we got to the last part of the check-up, “Fear of the Future” there were some questions asked that really made me think and a couple of light bulbs went onJ

There’s a lot of change going on in my life right now.

Good changeJ

God changeJ

None of it is anything I shouldn’t be able to handle without my God, my Father, my Lord and my Savior by my side. J There isn’t any area of my life that I can’t trust Him with. J

“So don’t be anxious about tomorrow. God will take care of your tomorrow too. Live one day at a time”. Matthew 6:34 Living Bible

“That is why we can say without any doubt or fear, The Lord is my Helper, and I am not afraid of anything...” HEBREWS 13:6 Living Bible

I love The Message version of Philippians 4:6-7

"Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ dispaces worry at the center of your life."

Aaron, as always has been amazing…he’s so reassuring and positive and he doesn’t lack in showing me just how much he cares about what I’m thinking and feeling. I couldn’t ask for more in my future.

I’m standing on God’s Word and His promises!

Anyone else struggle with this?

So we made it through Hurricane Dolly:)

No damage at my apartment or the place I stayed during the storm. We had electricity the entire storm. Some were less fortunate. Aaron (my fiance) didn't get electricity back until Tuesday--yea yesterday. (I think)

South Padre Island on the other hand...lots of work to be done there. Pray for the people who are there rebuilding.

Wedding plans are coming along. Today was spent working on our guest list, finishing getting addresses and getting proper names and such--so stressful for me. It shouldn't be but thinking about it just makes me want take a pen and scribble all over the list...LOL! Can't do that of course cuz it's on the computer:)

Aaron is amazing, as always. He helps keep me sane, really:) I love him so much

Tonight we begin work on my budget for the next 2 months. I'm just not real good at saving money. So, Aaron is gonna help me sort things out. Pray for us...

Love ya'll!